love begot life

I've been thinking alot about community. I've never really understood that God was always making us into community. It's how we were meant to live, it's not natural to be alone, and want to be alone. Even God Himself is a community, Himself. The Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. As three they are One. The smallest unit is two. A husband and a wife. Together they make one. Your wife or husband is you. You operate with her, as one. Humanity was created out of love. God truly loves us. His love begot humanity. We are alive because He loves us. However evil is self-destructive, not only to everything,but even to itself. It will not last forever. It will die alone,useless,with nothing to show, and pathetic with nothing else to destroy. But love creates Life. We can see that even now. Not only life but hope, and even strength. There across the street was a torn, and broken young man. Abused and tossed out of his home,but then you come along,give him a meal, a smile, and make him your friend. The young man gains hope that he's going to be alright. He then goes about through life. He sees a beautiful young woman about his age. He's instantly attracted to her. The two fall in love. They do sweet things for each other. He, one day, surprises her with a marriage ring. Of course she says yes. They get married. The young man gets a job with a house building company, because out of love, he wants to provide for his new wife,whom he loves more than anyone. Later the two decide they want a child. The husband and wife,out of love, had a baby. Love begot life. Out of love, God created humanity. Out of love, Christ died for us, giving us an eternity with Him. Love begot love. Love really is the most powerful force out there. In the end, love always wins the war. Good wins over evil. I LOVE YOU LORD.

-matthew

Everthing (1 corinthians 1)

So much affliction. If you ever want to be a serious follower of Christ who fully relies on God for EVERYTHING, it's human nature not to really love something ( or maybe just male) unless you have traveled through with it, and were tested with it ( God's will "allowed," not caused). Because once you're through, you will be stronger.But all the while, He held me through it. I believe this injury is a test. I'm learning to really need God (and know it myself) because I can rely on nothing else. I couldn't really before (rely on something else), now more than ever I know it would just fall away. I need Him for money, I need Him to get me through school,and I need Him for peace. I love You Jesus, I love you my God. He is my sustainment. If I would have never gone through this, I would have never truly known who/what I rely on. I made a conscious choice to follow to the end. It's just what Paul says in vs. 9. I am made to rely on my true salvation (Christ). I could die but death is gain through the Christ, Jesus.

I love you father, Lord hold me in this great affliction. You always have. I struggle through this. If it means going through this again, to be closer to You, it's worth it.

-matthew

He is life

Hey I think someone I know uncovered a weakness in my heart. I fight with this. Beauty, I tend to make something great to myself....but that beauty can not provide. That beauty is worthless in the end to protect me. That beauty can not be a job,or food. Beauty dies. Beauty is however captivating.

There really is no reason to even make that to myself, an idol. That is my idol. Yes, there's nothing wrong with beauty, but to make it more than it should be....that is a sin.It also hurts me in the end. I can't let beauty be more than it is in my life because their is no benefit. On this outing with the pastors I want to make Jesus more than anything in my heart. After all He is the creator of all beauty. How can I ever have better? He is life He is my purpose. He is my all. All else must be second.