I was giving my lament to God tonight. I had a bad day. I don't know why exactly I need to work so hard and have long tired days. I don't feel like I get any reward for my work! About that time I was reminded of "the prodigal son" story. You know how everyone wants to be the younger son because the party at the end is about him? Well, I'm not that, I'm the older son. I was always a bit hyper and risky, but I'm also very responsible. It's a strange mix, yes. I feel like I have it bad,and others, not as dedicated for as long a time as I have,(prepare for the "pity party") been able to hear God better. Maybe what I'm hearing is God (I've thought He would be more clear though). What the heck do I have to complain about then? I'm pretty sure He speaks to me, just not the way I assumed. I just need to refine my ears. I guess I am at fault then! About this time I read Luke 15:25-32 "son you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found." God will give me what I need when I ask. He has everything. I have faith and am believing. God will provide for me to get through school. I need my car. Lord, you will provide all things. I need the ability to finish my assignment (and hey You just did,hence the reason I have time to type this up). You will provide.I love You Lord.
Your older son,
(success update....I got the money to use my car! The army finally paid me!)